When you're a little girl, the most you really ever worry about is whether or not your friend will still want to be you be your friend, even if you don't have chicken drumet to share with them during break time.
when you grow up,you worry about so much more then you really need to worry about, without realizing it.
Define BestFriend for me
Does that means someone that will always be by your side, listen to what you want to say without complaining or feeling annoyed, someone that will not hurt you or someone that will protect you from getting hurt? If this is what we called best friend, sadly to say that I don't even have one. I used to think that I have a brunch of 'sister' and i was so naive to believe that our friendship will last even if we won't able to meet each other that often. Tried to hold on the friendship but nobody even want to bother about it, I gave up.
The ugliest fact that I've seen was people will only consider you as best friend when they want something on you or maybe i should say you are someone who can give them advantages. I've realise that peoples around me are getting more and more realistic, talk to me only when they need me and when I need them they don't even bother to give a fuck. No matter where you are, hyprocrites are all around the world. It's up to you to want to put in trust or not, but as for me I've taken a lesson. I chose not to trust anymore. To be honest, I do not think that I'm pathetic or whatsoever without having all these people in my life. On the other hand, I felt grateful for letting me know this UGLY fact earlier so I can start protecting myself from being hurt. I'm sorry that I will not change myself to suit anyone, accept me for who I am or stay away from me. I'd realise nothing is more important than loving myself.
. To those who were once my close friends *you-know-who-you-are*,
you may stop acting and get out of my life now.
Thank you so much and goodbye! :)
A million thank you for making me who am I today.
才发现原来我比想像中坚强 :)
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